Monday, May 07, 2007

Reflection on his life

I did a reflection on my life few days back..
yes.. i think thru of everything that has happened in my 18+yrs
seriously speaking I find my life nowadays rather no life..
im jus waiting for e day to start with school. with projects. go home. slp
next day same routine. im tired.. really i am..
i dono who to talk to.. and so i turned in to here..
read it if u want.. leave if u want.. i don't really bother..

I entered into this world on 10 sep 88..
frankly speaking i couldnt remember much of my childhood life
wad i know was tt im different from other kids cos i dun like cartoons
life was definitely fun back den cos u won't understand wad is books, career, relationship, frenzship of wadever crap tt u know now..

den i entered my primary school life.. it was den i started observing the surrounding environment. my dad has a stable job den, my mum was a housewife. oh well, i get preciously wadever i wan but strangely again.. i dun ask for gameboy or wadsoever games from my dad.. maybe im just weird.. i remembered a particular incident happening when i was in pri 3.. i was admitted to e hospital n stayed in for 5 days.. life was really hell for me cos i was young and e sickness gt mi to become tt weak till i cant stand on my own.. i dread going to sch cos im afraid of wad i oso dono.. hospital life was even sucky cos i had injections all over my body.. i remembered i cried the entire nite as each needle poke into my body.. i skipped sch for quite sometime and joined back in time for exam. strange enough i got 1st in class.. wadever but im happy.. i met a really gd teacher in pri 5 called ms chiang.. i cant forget her name.. she real gd to me.. she allowed my grp to take part in a competition back den even thou i submitted e grp later den another one.. obviously she cancelled e other grp application.. i learnt lots from her.. it was den tt yuan ma, benjamin, zheng sheng and some other real gd frenz entered my life.. we tried our best for e comp and eventually get selected to compete with e rest of e school.. my first accomplishment i would say.. but well e device broke down on e day of comp.. pretty upset.. we were den selected to display our product during e sch 5th anniversary and i was e one representing my grp.. it was really an achievement cos i had to talk to face to face with e minister visiting our sch.. pri 6 was psle.. i did well enough to enter regent.. choose it b/c it's a new school..

life in regent was really both my happiest and saddness moment. i met daryl, jiawah and tim loong during lower secs.. we were real gd frenz.. bball, badminton or wadsoever nonsense.. we did it tgt.. oh well tim loong was e odd one always.. i enjoyed their company and i hoped e frenzship we had goes on.. i joined npcc as my cca with e reason my cousin was in it and e uniform look nice.. cca back den was bad.. i hate e punishment.. it was worse.. by e end of sec 2 i met 'her'. health checkup in sch and they checked out my backbone isn't straight.. and my chest oso gt problem.. pretty upset on myself.. my mum had to work oso due to bad economy and we barely survived on my dad's income..

upper sec came and 6 of those in my class including mi went to another class. 5 of them is gal.. i was a loner den. took mi sometimes to adjust into e class. foster bonding during e charity bazaar thing but i wasnt really on oso.. we get tgt den. i was happy and i hope to be with her forever. but sadly to say.. we go our own way.. she gave reason tt she wanna study but i know it isnt so.. broke down real hard.. and den zk entered my life.. he really counselled mi.. i owe him lots of favour.. i thx him for everything tt he did for e entire 6 months to get mi on my own again.. i get real closed to 4/8 pple den.. ken, tkb, ght, ong, lgy, fred and many many other gd frenz.. sec 4 started and we started a gang with 15 pple, zk din mic yew ming mi jon tiff bear fiona zoey n i cant remembered e rest. im sorry. was real fun peeps whom we always played and study tgt..i gt migraine and it was so bad den i go for counselling with e sch's counsellor.. i hate myself for everything cos i always have lots of problems.. pat entered into my life den.. and den it's pokemon time, charmander and pikachu.. we talked nonsense all day long and became really gd frenz.. o level came and den i gave up on biology cos i really cmi on it..

my working life den really begins with APB and i met alyosius and alex and den we slacked and worked hard tgt.. i don't have time to think of anything den cos was busy working all day.. den i worked at RML and siew ping, tricia, sharon auntie, ah gek auntie and lots of others entered my life.. they were fun pple too.. frenzship with pat was becoming even better maybe cos she lives so near mi.. i confide lots of things to her.. and den we became best frenz.. i guess e only person who know lots abt mi will be her.. i thx her for being there whenever i need her too..

poly den begins and i became a CI.. i joined back rgt and den i get to know lkg n nat.. we were gd frenz.. i gt back with her again.. but eventually i ask for a break off cos i know she's busy and i shouldnt stopped her from doing e things she really want to do.. i decided to let go.. this time rd i hold on my tears.. life in poly get worse and my grp wasnt really in gd terms with my class.. my joined our grp and den we switched classes for this sems.. had 2 overseas trip during e poly life and e china trip really was an enjoyable one. sabah trip let mi have a bird eye view of their work life..

frenzhip forged long in e past seems to have gone.. im closer with my bros now, fred, lgy and ken.. we talked anything under e sun.. and tcsss.. and my project mates..

till then.. life is still boring...

im still in search of the person to fill e empty space in my heart..

im sad n tired..
i just wanna find some place to hide..
i just wanna be alone..

Posted by Wei Quan at 7:17 AM