Friday, April 11, 2008

tired & worn out..

time check: 1am
status: tired & worn out

been rather busy on lotsa stuffs recently.. alot of outstanding issues which i need to look into badly despite having to work too..
1. area bbq event
2. 4/9 bbq event
3. regent prom '08

1. area bbq event was a total messup.. with lotsa unhappiness here n there.. as the overall ic for this event, had to look into it.. which make me rather fan over this. sigh. proposal yet to be done up yet..
2. 4/9 chalet had eventually changed to a bbq event of which i actually volunteered earlier on to settle it, but i had no time to look into it eventually.
3. met with zk for further discussion on this prom stuffs. we are seriously behind schedule this time rd.. im taking 1 day off from work to look into this next week with zk.. aim to present this findings to jason & mrs lim asap...

it's too obvious that you are finding fault with 'us'..
apparently, the email that u addressed to me seems to be accusing me of sth of which i nv do..
well.. i spend total 2 hrs just to draft an reply back to explain the situation..
whatever it is~ total waste of time..

recently, i got myself to sleep late in the night. oh well.. occupying myself with busy stuffs are good at least i wont have the time to go and think so much..
had meeting earlier on with the area bbq committee pple, before heading to 302 for dao huay session with my unit pple. well.. hj wasnt here due to some matters that he mentioned to me briefly in another separate mail.. as friends with him for more than 13 yrs.. was definitely abit worried here n there n so i posted the qns out to the rest of them to gather more info on what has happened to him..

me: hey do u guys know wad happened to hj?
dj: dono
jam: dono
dj: eh if u the closest frenz with him dono, how do u expect us to know?
me: eh ya hor..
dj: actually the fact is wadever tt happened to all of us here (refering to the medium 'birds' and the 'youngest' birds), you are always the first to know leh..

seriously, i gt stunned at dj's words at tt split second. i nv knew that actually im the one they always look for when they gt certain issues..
somehow i agreed with dj when i think back those time they come to me telling them their stuffs, be it their relationship problems, units' issues or whatsoever things that we can talk about.. oh well sometimes u just do things unknowingly while in the process actually being there to be a listener for them and u only get to know about it when someone actually mentioned it out to you and then u started thinking and goodness.. tt's the truth.. freak lar.. now i think back.. i must be great in their eyes, imagine 4am in the morning someone sms u telling u how sad he/she was.. then u wakeup to reply them (i was nv a sound sleeper) and then he/she started calling u to talk to.. & you just pei he/she talk.. omg.. wei quan ar.. sometimes i think u are too great.. sigh.. but when it come to settling my own issues, im always at a lost of what to do..

yes i do have frenz who concern me over my problems, but somehow i rather the one concerning me is someone else. i mean i dono la.. i knew i always want sth of which i knew it will always be that difficult to be obtain of but i nv let myself give up but will rather fight my way thru it, tt's my character you see. if there's sth i determined myself to get it, i will definitely get it on my own no matter wad.. guess im trained with this since sec sch.. whatever things i want to have, i'll get it with my own money.. my room reno, laptop, phone, psp, lcd tv, speakers, wallet, watch & the list goes on.. i dun like askin my parents for money to get my stuffs.. even when im sick, i foot my own medical bills.. i learned to be very independence in a way which set me to look at things very differently. i always think far far ahead and i told myself i need to work hard for my future and stuffs. i know im a freak car lover and i so gonna tell myself to get a car on my own after working for a yr or so.. i want lots of things in this world, but i know i had to be realistic to know tt i can't be able to get all of this. most importantly, i just want someone who can stayed by my side to give me the necessary support and stuffs. okie maybe i think too much at times. but like wad i say, i always think far ahead.. sigh.. tt's me..

i miss you lots...

Posted by Wei Quan at 9:58 AM