Thursday, September 04, 2008

for you, 32669. . .

i said what i want to you in that 8 long msg.
given a chance. i would choose to talk face-face with you. cos i have tons of things to tell you but i doubt u will want to see me plus u wouldn't meet guys alone.
i tot through a lot before i send out that long msg. i only knew i will regret if i dun tell you how i feel towards you even though i know it might sacrifice everything now.

all this just caused mi to be mentally tired. insomnia. a good 1.5 yrs. ya maybe you nv realized it's tt long. cos it traced back to as far as the camp in march '07. shucks. i remembered every little single details how i noticed you during tt time. how i tried ways to try to know you. it's forever jotted down in my brain. then how we started msn, msg etc. i never met someone who nv failed to make mi smile everyday. it's you. a simple msg from you can jus brighten up my day. i gt no worries then. cos whenever im sad. i saw your reply. the saddness will be gone immediately.

now im only left with memories of those msg you send. right start from the first one. i dono to be glad or wad that my phone is still surviving well after numerous visits to the repair centre. but i think its gotta decommission soon. maybe i failed all your expectation that's why you had a 180 degrees change all of a sudden. i dono & i will nv know.

now. im still awaiting. awaiting that things will change for the better. but i dono how it will be. cos i already lost the courage to msg you anymore. by right things shld have ended earlier on back then. maybe it's really time to do so.